Humbled and Grace.

It wasn't fair. It isn't fair. The truth is I've put the cart before the horse and this isn't the first time.

There really are no excuses. Consider it a character flaw needing work. A lack of development. An inconsideration.

She means and is worth EVERYTHING. God and I both know this. Yet I've ridden the excitement and sped off disregarding a moment of vulnerability expressed by her. My steamroller activated and I once again set course for the endgame without honoring what was actually happening before me.

I am humbled by the realization. She may as well burn my information and have me wait another thousand years. Maybe then I'd be more fit for her presence.

Or maybe God will grant me wisdom. Maybe by His Grace I might grow.

I want to.

I hope so.

Aside from the Our Father I don't often pray specifically as such but in this matter I most certainly am:

I hope I might grow worthy of being a Godly son; a complete Husband and Father myself.

A man.

For this occurrence I am humbled. Thank you for Grace oh Lord.