A Sincere Sadness

These are interesting times we are in. The year is 2013. I personally have been alive as the human I am now for 31 years. In this short time (compared to humanity's existence) my consideration and overall feeling of my home and existence has been a sort of roller coaster ride. I've believed in a chaotic existence as well as an orchestrated one. I've believed in a reality of forward progress as well as a reality of inevitable destruction. I've felt extremely satisfied with the world as I knew it as well as completely confused by what I believed to be available as my living system. Throughout all of this roller coaster ride there have been a few consistent aspects that remain regardless of my feelings. For starters, things change. I've looked long and hard at both artificial and natural living systems. Both change. There are differences in how they change. The natural systems seem to be reacting to something. As if they are defending themselves. Much like a deer first encountering a hunter and doing all it can to flee. The artificial systems seem to be testing new ways to fulfill their own existence. This testing seems to be leading to waste and destruction. Perhaps this artificial testing is what leads to the natural reaction. Another thing that remains is human stubbornness. Although people seem to appear different, most that I associate with adhere to the same philosophical principles. Including myself. Why is that? Why are we so concerned with protecting our basic values that we'll lay waste to our very own living systems and sacrifice well-being (such as a cancer victim that wouldn't give up smoking or bicycling or cell phones or what have you after being warned) to maintain our stubborn adherence to a rigid belief system? I just began viewing the documentary "The Corporation" that was released in 2003. This is a very well done informational film regarding perhaps the single most destructive aspect of modern human existence. The power of this film comes from it's utilizing cold, hard facts. Regardless of what one believes, nobody can argue with environmental decline. As well, nobody can argue with the issues that have arisen within our experience on Earth since the groundwork was laid for corporations to surpass humans as the most resilient component of the economic landscape. This movie outlines the issues of today (environmental destruction, species extinction, inner-species conflict, pain, suffering, starvation) and paves a clear path of understanding directly toward the power of The Corporation. In my journey I was so confused in my existence that I too started a corporation. My idea was to protect my livelihood so I personally wouldn't be tied to any business practices I conducted. It was a fear based move done so to protect financial gain and prosperity. It is this basic element that makes corporations so destructive. It is also this realization that give myself a sincere sadness. I hope that this sadness can blossom into a productive change. I also realize a philosophical change may be needed to see this all through. I am willing to sacrifice a belief should the opportunity present itself. For the greater good. Can you say the same? Peace.